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Somehow I doubt I have lurkers, but, if so, comment here I guess, and I'll add you if you don't suck total ass.
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| Shot |
[Tuesday: May 9th, 2006 @ 6:01pm] |
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Tonight we escape
just you and me
we'll find our peace
somewhere across the seas
enough of the fright
enough of the fuss
I'll be awake if he finds us
needless to say
I'll stand in your way
I will protect you
and I...
I'll take the shot for you
I'll be the shield for you
needless to say
I'll stand in your way
I'll take the shot for you
I'll give my life for you
I'll make it stop
I'll take the shot for you
for you
tonight we'll be free
I'll find us a home
tonight we will be
finally on our own
enough of the hell
enough of the pain
I won't let him touch you
I love you
needless to say
I'll stand in your way
I will defend you
and I'll....
I'll take the...
enough of the scars
enough broken hearts
I will protect you
and I..
I'll take the shot
I'll make it stop
I'll make it stop
I'll take the shot
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| Falling Apart |
[Friday: May 5th, 2006 @ 6:36am] |
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Entwine |
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I'm not here to break you
I am here to save your soul
I'm not here to hurt you
I don't want you to lose control
I am the shape of your life
I am the seed of your mind
I'll be your dream
I'll be your star
Can't you see that I'm the one
I'll be your hate
I'll be your love
Don't you know that I'm the one
I'm not here to use you
I am here to tame your soul
I'm not here to blame you
I am here to play your role
I am the shape of your life
I am an illusion of your mind
I'll be your dream
I'll be your star
Can't you see that I'm the one
I'll be your hate
I'll be your love
Don't you know that I'm the one
I'll be your dream
I'll be your star
Can't you see that I'm the one
I'll be your hate
I'll be your love
Can't you see I'm falling apart
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| Love...and Death... Probably feel similar.. |
[Friday: May 5th, 2006 @ 5:47am] |
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Entwine - Safe In A Dream |
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No... I'm not as depressed as that subject line would elude. Quite the contrary. I'm in love... deathly in love... I have to go and update my interests soon... add some more bands. It's almost six in the morning again, and I'm still up because I'm DLing stuff that... well... might expire if I don't get to it soon... so I'm willing to take the lost sleep for this.
Yet another one done. I can't wait to hear it... And another one started...
I'm at sort of a loss for words here... other than maybe Oh. My. God. I don't know what else to say.. This is so emotional... I'm hanging on every word... every note.. Ah, god... I'm just gonna quit trying to explain it... it's visceral, it's ethereal, and yet... almost physical...
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| Killing Lonliness |
[Monday: May 1st, 2006 @ 4:58pm] |
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H.I.M. |
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Memories, sharp as daggers
Pierce into the flesh of today
Suicide of love took away all that matters
And buried the remains in an unmarked grave in your heart
With the venomous kiss you gave me
I'm killing loneliness (Killing loneliness)
With the warmth of your arms you saved me,
Oh, I'm killing loneliness with you
I'm killing loneliness that turned my heart into a tomb
I'm killing loneliness
Nailed to the cross, together
As solitude begs us to stay
Disappear in the lie forever
And denounce the power of death over our souls and secret words are said to start a war
With the venomous kiss you gave me
I'm killing loneliness (Killing loneliness)
With the warmth of your arms you saved me,
I'm killing loneliness with you
I'm killing loneliness that turned my heart into a tomb
I'm killing loneliness
Killing loneliness
With the venomous kiss you gave me
I'm killing loneliness (Killing loneliness)
With the warmth of your arms you saved me
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| Still Alive |
[Thursday: April 27th, 2006 @ 5:16pm] |
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These are those days
when I can get no sleep
I'm so tired I'd like
to fall into sleep
I fall in my bed
but still I'm awake
These questions in my
mind are so much
bigger than life
but my life is short
I have to leave
them behind
I have to try and forget
that I am still in my bed
In my deepest fears
I'm losing you
Even if somebody
tried to stop my heart
I'm still alive
I will never give up
Just turn off the lights
Don't wanna
see me die
I look like I'm dead but
when you look at me
I am still alive
Just open your eyes
Don't wanna see me cry
I'm right here where you
want me to be fighting
with myself
All I need to feel is your
breath on my skin
This endless longing
between you and me
We can't give up now,
we're gonna make it
somehow
In my sweetest dreams
I'm with you
Even if somebody
tried to stop my heart
I'm still alive
I will never give up
Just turn off the lights
Don't wanna see me die
I look like I'm dead but
when you look at me
I am still alive
Just open your eyes
Don't wanna see me cry
I'm right here where you
want me to be fighting
with myself
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| Monument |
[Monday: April 24th, 2006 @ 7:39pm] |
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The Cruxshadows |
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I never wrote you a love song
somehow words could not express what I needed to say.
and so I never wrote you a love song
and now its much, much too late 'cause you've gone away
But I will build this monument
to remember all the love we once had
and I'll close my eyes and make it how it used to be
I swear I never stopped loving you with everything I am
and it hurts so much to think you stopped loving me
you stopped loving me...
So I wish I'd had written you a love song
and somehow you understood what it feels to be me
because the Angel loves the sprite forever
and does it unconditionally
But I will build this monument
to remember all the love we once had
and I'll close my eyes and make it how it used to be
I swear I never stopped loving you with everything I am
and it hurts so much to think you stopped loving me
you stopped loving me...
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| Thoughts on fonts... |
[Wednesday: April 19th, 2006 @ 7:02pm] |
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H.I.M. |
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So I changed the font on my LJ.... no one can probably see it now but me... there being the problem with custom fonts. Damnit all. Now it looks fucking sick, and nobody else can see it. So I have to pick a secondary, decent font that comes with all computers so that it's not showing up with something completely dumb for everyone else. Argh. And now, these days, computers don't even come standard with cool shit anymore. It sucks complete ass... Anyway, that's my short rant of the day...
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| When I Come Around |
[Wednesday: April 19th, 2006 @ 5:17pm] |
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Green Day |
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I heard you crying loud,
all the way across town
You've been searching for that someone,
and it's me out on the prowl
As you sit around feeling sorry for yourself
Don't get lonely now
And dry your whining eyes
I'm just roaming for the moment
Sleazin' my back yard so don't get so uptight
you been thinking about ditching me
No time to search the world around
Cause you know where I'll be found
When I come around
I heard it all before
So don't knock down my door
I'm a loser and a user so I don't need no accuser
to try and slag me down because I know you're right
So go do what you like
Make sure you do it wise
You may find out that your self-doubt means nothing
was ever there
You can't go forcing something if it's just
not right
No time to search the world around
Cause you know where I'll be found
When I come around
When I come around
No time to search the world around
Cause you know where I'll be found
When I come around
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| Bury Me Deep Inside Your Heart... |
[Tuesday: April 18th, 2006 @ 3:50am] |
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Let me wake up in your arms
Hear you say it's not alright
Let me be so dead and gone
So far away from life
Close my eyes
Hold me tight
And bury me deep inside your heart
All I ever wanted was you, my love
You're all I ever wanted is you, my love
Your're all I ever wanted, just you
Let me never see the sun
And never see you smile
Let us be so dead and so gone
So far away from life
Just close my eyes
Hold me tight
And bury me deep inside your heart
All I ever wanted was you, my love
You're all I ever wanted is you, my love
You're all I ever wanted, you, oh my love
You're all I ever wanted, you, my love
That's the way it's always been
My heart stops beating only for you Baby
Only for your loving
All I ever wanted was you, my love
You're all I ever wanted is you, my love
You're all I ever wanted, you, my love
You're all I ever wanted, you, my love
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| I've got skills of my own, bitches... |
[Monday: April 17th, 2006 @ 11:02pm] |
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So... that cute ass picture I was going to post... hahaha, bitches... I did it all on my own. Not that I might not make a pimp ass fansite, who knows... I sure do have a lot of time on my hands... but.. anyway..
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| Bittersweet |
[Monday: April 17th, 2006 @ 4:40pm] |
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Apocalyptica |
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I'm giving up the ghost of love
endure the shadows cast on devotion
She is the one that I adore
Queen of my silent suffocation
Break this bittersweet spell on me
Lost in the arms of destiny
Bittersweet
I won't give up I'm possessed by her
I'm bearing a cross; she's turned into my curse
Break this bittersweet spell on me
lost in the arms of destiny
Bittersweet
I want you
I'm wanting you
and I need you
I'm needing you
Break this bittersweet spell on me
lost in the arms of destiny
Break this bittersweet spell on me
lost in the arms of destiny
Bittersweet...
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| So... |
[Sunday: April 16th, 2006 @ 6:26am] |
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Funeral of Hearts |
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I was going to post a fucking cute ass picture, but... I'm too tired to try at the moment...maybe tomorrow I will ask someone with skills, and they will help me out here, but... if not... then I may have to go on and create my own website. And speaking of websites, has anyone else noticed the lack of good fansites out there? Fucking bullshit, I tell you.. What the fuck happened to the computer generation who knew how to write HTML and make a fucking fan site? It pisses me off.. now I have to sort through tons of BULLSHIT before I can find something worth looking at... I'm down to searching for pictures under googles image search. It's FUCKING CRAP, AND IT PISSES ME OFF. Okay. I feel better now that I have that said. But really, come on now people.. give me a fucking break. I mean, really, if we can't be literate in any other way, at least be tech friendly... but no.... we have a world of fucking dumbasses, who can't write, and who definately can't write HTML. I write better drunk than half of you fucks. Jesus.
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| Fuck it, I'm moving... |
[Saturday: April 15th, 2006 @ 10:29pm] |
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The Rasmus |
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So.... looking online, doing my research... and.. I'm going to Finland... no, damnit, I'm moving to Finland... but I do plan to visit first. So I went to expedia... and yes, yes, it's reasonable and I'm fucking going. You can stay fucking twenty three days for under four fucking grand. It's fucking awesome. I'm moving... I am going to go searching for prices of visas now...
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| Guilty |
[Saturday: April 15th, 2006 @ 4:48pm] |
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The Rasmus |
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I feel guilty
my words are empty
no signs to give you
I don't have the time for you
you say I'm heartless
and you say I don't care
I used to be there for you
and you've said I seem so dead, that I have changed
but so have you
guilty, guilty I feel so
empty, empty you know how to make me feel
I put a shield upon you
I didn't mean to hurt you
I would have only poisoned your mind
never meant to make you cry
you've been so thoughtless
I can see right through you
you used to be there for me
so don't you leave say goodbye
cause you have changed but so have I
I never thought that the time and the distance
between us made you so much colder
I'll carry the world on my shoulders
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| Haemoglobin |
[Friday: April 14th, 2006 @ 8:42pm] |
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Placebo |
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I was hanging from a tree
Unaccustomed to such violence
Jesus looking down on me
I'm prepared for one big silence
How'd I ever end up here
Must be through some lack of kindness
And it seemed to dawn on me
Haemoglobin is the key
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heart beat
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heart beat
At the time they cut me free
I was brimming with defiance
Doctors looking down on me
Breaking every law of science
How'd I ever end up here?
A latent strain of color blindness
Then it seemed to dawn on me
Haemoglobin is the key
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heart beat [x4]
Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground
As they drag me to my feet
I was filled with incoherence
Theories of conspiracy
The whole world wants my disappearance
I'll go fighting nail and teeth
You've never seen such perseverance
Gonna make you scared of me
Cause haemoglobin is the key
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heart beat [x4]
Now my feet don't touch the ground [x8]
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| Love is Only a Feeling... |
[Wednesday: April 12th, 2006 @ 5:33pm] |
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The Darkness |
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The first flush of youth was upon you when our eyes first met
And I knew that to you and into your life I had to get
I felt light-headed at the touch of this stranger's hand
An assault my defences systematically failed to withstand
'Cos you came at a time
When the pursuit of one true love in which to fall
Was the be all and end all
Love is only a feeling
(Drifting away)
When I'm in your arms I start believing
(It's here to stay)
But love is only a feeling
Anyway
The state of elation that this unison of hearts achieved
I had seen, I had touched, I had tasted and I truly believed
That the light of my life
Would tear a hole right through each cloud that scudded by
Just to beam on you and I
Love is only a feeling
(Drifting away)
When I'm in your arms I start believing
(It's here to stay)
But love is only a feeling
Anyway, anyway
Love is only a feeling
(Drifting away)
And we've got to stop ourselves believing
(It's here to stay)
'Cos love is only a feeling
Anyway.
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| Castaway |
[Wednesday: April 12th, 2006 @ 6:31am] |
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Green Day |
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I'm on a sentimental journey
Into sight and sound
Of no return and no looking back or down
A conscientious objecter to the
War that's my mind
While leaving in the lurch and I'm
Taking back what's mine
I'm on a mission
Into destination unknown
An expidition
Into desolation road
Where I'm a...
Castaway - going at it alone
Castaway - now I'm on my own
Castaway - going at it alone
Castaway - now I'm on my own
Lost and found, trouble bound
Castaway
I'm riding on the night train and
Driving stolen cars
Testing my nerves out of the boulavard
Spontaneous combustion in the
Corners of my mind
While leaving in the lurch
And I'm taking back what's mine
I'm on a mission
Into destination unknown
An expidition
Into desolation road
Where I'm a...
Castaway - going at it alone
Castaway - now I'm on my own
Castaway - going at it alone
Castaway - now I'm on my own
Lost and found, trouble bound
Castaway
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| Hang 'Em High |
[Monday: April 10th, 2006 @ 4:19pm] |
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My Chemical Romance |
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Wait until it fades to black
Ride into the sunset
Would I lie to you?
Well, I've got something to say
Grab your six-gun from your back
Throttle the ignition
Would I die for you?
Well here's your answer in spades
Shotgun sinners
Wild eyed jokers
Got you in my sights
Gun it while I'm holding on
After all is said and done
Climb out from the pine box
Well I'm asking you
'Cause she's got nothing to say
The angels just cut out her tongue
Call her black Mariah
Would I lie to you?
That girl's not right in the brain
Mass convulsions
Strike the choir
By the grace of God
Gun it while I'm holding on
But don't stop if I fall
And don't look back
Oh baby don't stop
Bury me and fade to black
She won't stop me put it down
She won't stop me put it down
She won't stop me put it down
So get your gun and meet me by the door
[x3]
She won't stop me put it down
She won't stop me put it down
She won't stop me put it down
So baby...
Don't stop if I fall
And don't look back
Oh baby don't stop
Bury me and fade to black
[x2]
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| Bury Me Deep Inside Your Heart |
[Monday: April 10th, 2006 @ 5:50am] |
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H.I.M. |
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Let me wake up in your arms
Hear you say it's not alright
Let me be so dead and gone
So far away from life
Close my eyes
Hold me tight
And bury me deep inside your heart
All I ever wanted was you, my love
You're all I ever wanted is you, my love
You're all I ever wanted, just you
Let me never see the sun
And never see you smile
Let us be so dead and so gone
So far away from life
Just close my eyes
Hold me tight
And bury me deep inside your heart
All I ever wanted was you, my love
You're all I ever wanted is you, my love
You're all I ever wanted, you, oh my love
You're all I ever wanted, you, my love
That's the way it's always been
My heart stops beating only for you, Baby
Only for your loving
All I ever wanted was you, my love
You're all I ever wanted is you, my love
You're all I ever wanted, you, my love
You're all I ever wanted, you, my love
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